Do I Care Enough?

Will it matter what you do
Cause I don't know if I even care enough
Sitting here at this point

Time after time
Always the same thing
Mistake after mistake
Apology, forgiveness
How much longer
How many more times
Must we repeat this cycle

What if I said no
What if I said stop
What if I didn't want to do this anymore

No title found it is my journal back from 6/16/09

I found comfort in the sun today
Its warmth wrapped around me
Its rays attached to my back

Was it because you're not here
Unable to wrap your arms around me
Or hold me close to your body

But I found comfort in the sun today
It urged me to move forward
It helped me along the way
Shining down on me and staying all the way

Trying to understand why you couldn't stay
Thinking of how I love you just the other day

But I found comfort in the sun today
Shining bright enought to guide me through the day
And setting only when I could find my way.

I want to cry

I want to cry because
I don't know you
I want to cry because
You don't know me
I want to cry because
I need you
I want to cry because
I want to love you
I want to cry because
I will be happy with you
I want to cry because
I am no complete without you
I want to cry because
I am not me
I want to cry, but I can't.

Time

Coffee on the table
Getting cold a the minutes pass
Can't take my eyes off of your
Photo or let go of your shirt
I miss you more each day

I dread the day I can no longer
Feel your touch
Or the day I can no longer smell
Your scent in our bed

You left this world many years too soon
I wish we had more time

Time to love you more
Time to be held in your loving embrace
Time to memorize the way you kiss my lips

Never should I have fought with you
It was time I could have loved
You the way you always loved me

I wish we had more time
Time to love you more
Time to be held in your loving embrace
Time to memorize the way you kiss my lips

More time is all we needed
To love as though we never had before
To love as though we have no tomorrow

I wish we had more time
So I could love you more
Love you more.

I Believe

I believe somone had to be watching over me
So I could find you
I believe you loved me
So much it hurt
I believe I loved you
More than you ever knew
I believe I would do it all again
To be with you for one more minute
To love you for one more second
To know you're okay
To have the chance to say good bye.

No title just something I wrote while working out...

Sorry it has been so long since I have written anything. Life has been very busy.

You make me incredibly mad
Unlike anyone else can
Frustrated and unsure
I've never felt like this before.

You have a way with words
A way I have never heard before
But must it be so hurtful
When you could explain it
Some other way.

I wish I could love you again
The way I did before
But are these wounds
Small enough to heal or
Will they just tear open again.

Do you understand what I'm
Saying or feeling
Can you make me feel the
Way I need to feel
Or will you never change and
Leave me to finally heal.

Second Chances

A time to make things right
And fix what was wrong
A time to see you again
And be held in your sweet embrace

A second chance is all we need
To love again for all eternity
To love like there will be no tomorrow
To love for a reason
And not just because

Chose to love me once more
Chose to see deep in me
Ignore the mistakes I've made
Instead see what I'm doing to change

A second chance is all we need
To love again for all eternity
To love like there will be no tomorrow
To love for a reason
And not just because

So chose me to love
And let me be the one to love you forever
To take care of you when your sick
To be the one to be there for you when you need me
Give me a second chance
A chance to love you for now and ever more.